Is there a reason for the negative experiences I am going through?
If my life is hard, does this mean I'm not spiritual enough or on the right path?
What are the metaphysical meanings behind my physical reality?
What's the purpose to all of this?
We all want some kind of "spiritual answers" that make us at least feel okay about our uncomfortable situations. Yet, regardless of what we feel, believe, or experience, we are WHOLE, PERFECT BEINGS RIGHT NOW. This is the "lesson" so to speak.
Metaphysically speaking, we choose life simply for it's experience. We set up parameters, have "ideas" and intentions, let's say, and then we are born. As our lives unfold, we experience the fullness of being by experiencing a spectrum of thoughts, feelings, challenges, blessings, and so on. We react, act, expand, contract, sleep, eat and love.
As humans, there are certain "agreements" or "rules" we have accepted - like we really do have to eat and breathe if we want to keep our bodies. Yet, we are both human and spiritual, so we instinctively play with the idea of spirit with our human experiences, and our own "remembering" of this aspect.
To really feel human, we take on duality - in thoughts and experiences - some taking this on to a greater degree than others. Yet, the only way to experience duality is through judgment. Again, this is perfectly human. We judge ourselves, others, life, experiences, EVERYTHING. And, it's actually something that has served us all of our lives.
However, as we "shift" into a higher, more awakened consciousness, we are "collapsing" into the experience of Oneness, where the illusion of duality merges into wholeness.
So what experiences are we having that reflect this shift in the collective consciousness?
Our own judgments of life, ourselves and our beliefs are bubbling to the surface during these changing times. This can be quite challenging and even painful.
Therefore, I simply suggest to breathe. To allow yourself to have the doubts, the insecurities and feel what you are feeling. Breathe into the moment. As your fear arises, if you can be with it, you will find it will settle down and disintegrate. You'll find that you were fully present with you in that moment, and thus allowed yourself to experience life as you. My guess is that at that moment, the moment after the fear faded, you felt bliss and contentment and realized that your physical reality didn't really matter... at least not in that moment.
So, little by... oh, maybe it's brick by... or wait... perhaps it's major issue by major issue, you will begin to experience more and more of the bliss as you experience more and more of the NOW. It takes practice, patience and willingness, but it's actually all there is.
YOU ARE THE ALL THAT IS. You are simply re-membering it. You are whole, holy and worthy - ALWAYS.