Waking... waking... waking...
How can one awaken if in reality there is only the awakened state?
Sometimes I feel myself as a huge being of light with infinite wisdom. Other times I am a struggling mother with a flabby belly and a messy home.
Of course, I know I am both... all.
Yet, the reality is that this reality is a tricky one. It is so full of potential, that somehow I have created an entire story and made it real. Wow! Now that is powerful.
Yet, the truth is, I don't exactly remember how I did this. Oh, yes, I know people claim to know the "secret," but I don't. Well, I only have a vague memory of the plan, the workings, the so-called truth.
I have chosen to stay asleep to this, however, and I yearn to awaken. Or do I?
Isn't this the glorious experience? To know, but forget you know, and then try to remember?
In the meantime, I am learning to cherish the forgetfulness. To laugh, to play, to be perfectly human. Sometimes the mommy struggles, sometimes she soars. Sometimes the belly squeezes itself into a tight pair of jeans, sometimes it is caressed with love and kindness. Sometimes the house is messy and chaotic, sometimes it is the center of the Universe, filled with love and life and everything outside it disappears completely.
Hm.... a strange, yet fascinating experience full of air, water, earth and fire. The elements of life itself.
Am I awakening? Maybe I have awakened. I seem to know the basics. Perhaps this is good enough.
Listen... listen closely to your heart. What is it saying? What does it desire most? Busyness (sometimes business) can keep us from hearing that which sings so loudly in our being. We can get caught up in the busyness of Life... working, teaching, giving, doing, earning, and so on.
In the stillness, we can make room for listening.
Quietude in an option, too. On the to do's of your day, perhaps you make a tiny space for quietude. Then simply LISTEN.
Perhaps one day you will begin to hear the song of your own heart.
When we think about anything, we think about something. Beyond our thoughts, there is an entire Universe of infinite somethings. Likewise, there is an entire Universe of infinite nothing. Perhaps you have wondered or thought about what’s “between” all the something; that void or space where no-thing exists. It’s possible, since nothing is equally as present as matter. You may have had a keen awareness of nothingness. It may even seem more present in your consciousness lately.
Nothingness is always present. In actuality, it is the essence of who we are.
As we unveil our essence, we begin experiencing more and more of the nothingness within and around us. For our human minds and perceptions this can be quite uncomfortable. First, it can be hard to comprehend nothingness. Our minds love to "grasp" things - thoughts, beliefs, ideas, and so on. Secondly, our senses are defined by their experiences of something. Our eyes look to life and see things. We don't see that a table is actually a bunch of vibrating energy particles not even touching each other; we see a solid table. We feel, smell and taste all the somethings that are in our world. Can we hear the nothingness? No... that, too, is something. We can only hear something.
Is it possible to experience nothingness - if only for an instant - in a silent meditation?
Maybe you try it. Perhaps you begin with a quiet space, a small chunk of time, a comfortable sitting position, and the simplicity of your breath. Allow yourself to return to your breath as your mind wanders and wonders and identifies with something. This is the discipline of meditation; to return. Stillness, space, breath... allowing.
Then, possibly, you will experience the nothingness. Between the immeasurable moments you experience all the somethings you are, you may find yourself experiencing the nothingness that you are as well. Maybe you try it just for the experience, nothing more.
After all, it doesn't really matter. NOTHING really MATTERS.
Last night I decided to attend a group called "Psychics in Action." The group, facilitated by Aureya Magdalen, MFT, gathers one evening per month and usually focuses on a theme. I attend sporadically; maybe two to three times per year. Last night's theme - Trust - was the primary motivation behind my willingness to drive an hour to get there.
It was a good session and, in terms of how we approached Trust, completely different than I expected.
As usual, we were lead into an individually-focused meditation. Over the decades of practicing guided visualization I have learned, 1) to drop into the desired state extremely fast, 2) to simply observe what unfolds, rather than try to force things to happen, and 3) to refrain from over-analyzing the images or thoughts that come to me.
Well, during last night's meditation, the latter skill was a bit more challenging than usual. The images I received were so "dark" and felt so "opposite" of me that it was almost shocking. Thus, my judgments, questions and analyzing met the shock with a great desire for understanding.
Fortunately, I have been "deciphering" images and downloads for most of my life. Within a short time, the information neutralized my perception of negativity.
Soon, we were lead to the end of the meditation and I found myself so deeply embedded into the Oneness, that leaving the altered state was excruciatingly difficult. Explaining what I experienced is even more so, but I will certainly try.
It’s exciting to have a day in which we collectively honor our Mother Earth. Like a person’s birthday, it is a way to acknowledge, celebrate and bless what we may unconsciously take for granted the other 364 days of the year. Sure, it may be an exaggeration to imply we take our loved ones or the earth for granted most of the year, but it must be confessed by all of us how those “special days” bring our appreciation and awareness up a notch or two. On April 22, many will commemorate Earth Day.
As we become more conscious spiritually, we will notice our consciousness extends to most – if not all – areas of our lives; or vice versa. We recognize the interconnectedness of all of Life, including our dear Mother Earth.
For Earth Day, did you buy a special card for Mother Earth?
Many spiritual seekers use recreational drugs – from marijuana to peyote to mushrooms – to reach altered states with the intention of attaining enlightenment. Some on the spiritual path will work with a shaman or healer to help produce the results they seek; whereas others use these substances to feel more connected to God, Oneness, Love and other euphoric energies. So, perhaps many are celebrating their union with the Divine on April 20 by getting high on what many call “Pot Day” or “Weed Day.”
Another option, of course, is to connect with the Divine, clear and clean.
There are an infinite number of ways to connect with Source. Simply being fully present with another human being can be an amazing spiritual, clean experience. Lovemaking – with or without practicing Tantra or the Kama Sutra – can connect us to our partners as well as with God/dess, if our hearts are open to do so. Pets and children radiate with unconditional love – a pure conduit to the spiritual realms of Oneness.
Sometimes we need “evidence” or “scientific proof” before we believe something to be “true” or “real.” Interestingly, as spirituality and science merge back to Oneness, we will likely find both scientific proof as well as its dissolution exist simultaneously. We may soon discover that the Divine is one vast paradox – both everything and nothing at all.
In the meantime, we are likely to find the fundamental “truths” of ancient mystic spirituality and the newly discovered “facts” of science becoming more like allies than adversaries. Notably, a recent study of our brain’s ability to multitask* seems to be befriending the concept of mindfulness. At this rate maybe science will “discover” the miracle of mindfulness sooner rather than later?
Simply stated, mindfulness is the ability to be aware and awake to the present moment. It is a central concept in Buddhism. Multitasking is the performance of multiple tasks at one time. It is a central way of living for most modern day humans. Or is it?
Can we be awake and aware to the present moment and multitask at the same time?
Is your life getting busier and busier? Do you need a simple living guide?
We tend to live in a hectic and overly busy society. In just 24 hours we are expected to work eight or more hours, commute to and from our workplace, exercise for at least 20 minutes (if not an hour), eat three balanced meals, take our daily vitamins, shuffle our children to various extra-curricular activities, walk our dogs, and, if we are on the spiritual path, meditate for 10 to 20 minutes, plus get a good night’s sleep!
Oh, and we can’t forget those weekly (or more) to do’s that are sprinkled in; keep the house straightened, give it a deep cleaning once a week, grocery shop, take that evening business or self-improvement class, tend to the garden, wash the car, the laundry and the kids, scoop pet poop, and go to church.
Wait, there’s more! Dentist appointments, car tune-ups and maintenance, community volunteering, haircuts, the kids’ games or meets, class parent meetings, regular veterinarian visits, monthly book club, and those well anticipated family vacations and three-day weekends that we call “getaways.”
At these times, we are moving through a spiritual awakening that can take our breath away. Some may believe we are feeling overwhelmed because we have gotten so busy and are over-tasked. Yes, many of us continue to expand in the “doing” category. Yet, even for those who have taken the road to simple living, our energetic forces seem to be propelling us forward.
Forward is a direction, isn’t it?
A direction, indeed, but also an illusion. (The spiritual reality is there is no space or time.)
When we feel the inner stirrings of our soul expanding, growing and somehow wanting – and becoming – “more,” we can wonder about our sanity, sense of self and what we’re supposed to do with it all.
What are we to do with it all?
We don’t have to do anything. We can simply relax into it.
We are individually and collectively expanding into “more.” We are becoming clearer, more open conduits for an awakened consciousness. This allows our Divinity to shine through us more brightly.
What does this mean?
Some moments are easy to live into: celebrations, joyful times, passionate body and heart connections. Other moments, to say the least, are a bit more challenging: tragedy, sickness, fear.
What would happen if we shifted our perceptions of what it "should" be like to live into the moment? Most of us define living into a moment as "enjoying" it, but perhaps that is not an accurate definition.
Living into the moment is simply being present with What Is; completely experiencing the moment, the situation at hand, and whatever feelings that arise at that time. And, paradoxically, to notice when we simply can't. In other words, our awareness of how we are avoiding or escaping the moment is actually one way to be with it!