Highly awake people tend to be ultra-conscious, which often translates into being overly critical of everything they do, and even who they are. In spite of pure intentions, good deeds and spiritual striving, the weight of self-criticism can bog the spiritual seeker down in Earthy mud and muck! No matter how hard those chakra wheels spin, there is little traction to get unstuck. A belief rises to the surface:
If I were only spiritual enough, everything in my life would fall into place.
Is this conviction keeping your contentment hostage? Are you constantly trying to “change negative thinking” or “process fears” or perfect your spiritual practices? Are you really sure you are doing everything RIGHT?
Perhaps you should learn to meditate in that Earthly mud… or better yet, just play in it!
Yes, dear seeker, this moment – as you recognize just how inadequate you are and how many more miles there are to walk on your spiritual journey – is the perfect time to take a long, deep, loving breath and exhale gratitude with a heart-felt “OM.” Put that soft Buddha smile back on your face before you read on.
Like any good, spiritual enthusiast, you likely did as instructed… and perhaps you feel better… or not. The question is, Do you believe there is an ever-evading perfect life waiting for you to ascend to it?
Rather than process your beliefs about this one, or give you some affirmations to repeat for the next 21 days, here are some essential truths for your heart to behold:
Maybe, wise one, you are already evolved and your only “lesson” is to embrace your Perfection now? Perhaps it is time to stop taking it all so seriously (as you are oh-so-beautifully conscious that you actually know you are always emanating your best anyway). It’s time to have a bit of fun for a change!
Need ideas about what to do at recess, spiritual student?
Life is an amazing unfoldment of the All That Is, ever-changing, ever-Perfect, ever-mysterious. As we awaken further to our higher spiritual consciousness, we will discover what we perceive to be obstacles along the way. Are they obstacles? Did we create them? Perhaps.
Allowing your Perfection is remembering that you are absolutely spiritual enough, your life is a Divine reflection of your expanding soul, and the present moment is where you get to embrace it… mud, muck and ascension.
Sometimes we move to a place of looking inward. This can be through quiet meditation, at an intentionally introspective weekend, or during a critical time in our lives. Generally speaking, however, we move in and out of this place so quickly, it’s barely noticeable. How many times (a day or a week) do you find yourself simply “feeling bad” about yourself, your life or your choices? This is a form of looking inward, yet it is infused with negative self judgment.
We can look back to the ‘whys’ that created our negative self judgment for intellectual understanding. Likely, we will find numerous stories which reveal how some non-constructive seeds were planted into our beings – Mom acting surprised when you accomplished a significant task, the tone in Dad’s voice when he told you he was disappointed in you, childhood friends who teased you for believing you had magic, and so on.
Intentional or not, other people’s actions and words can leave a lasting impression in the minds and hearts of children. As we grow, we learn to either accept or reject what others say and think about us. Sometimes we reject it outwardly, but harbor the feelings – which become beliefs – inwardly. As adults, we often make choices that will reflect back to us these inner beliefs; with “positive” beliefs creating “positive” results, and “negative” beliefs creating “negative” results. This is only considered an “issue” when the results are undesirable, of course. In our own ignorance of the underlying patterns, we may wonder why certain circumstances in our lives become “themes.” Perhaps we begin to feel unlucky, incapable, stuck or hopeless.
For a moment, imagine an unconscious negative feeling about yourself as a magnet. This magnet, hidden below the surface, draws to it the energy patterns that resonate with it. Thus, if you feel / believe that you are not capable of being successful, for example, then patterns of non-success will continually find their way to you. This, of course, makes the belief system more and more believable, which in turn adds to the intensity of the feelings and the magnet becomes stronger!
At this time of awakening, we are releasing many of the old patterns that no longer serve us (thank goodness!). Some patterns will simply transmute themselves into higher (more loving) frequencies with grace and ease. Yet, the deeper, bigger ones may be acting wildly out of control, leaving you feeling exhausted and downright bad about yourself. Wouldn’t it be nice if you could wave a magic wand over those stuck energies and release them once and for all?
Hawk of Nevada City, a Practitioner and Instructor of Quantum Touch, offered a neat little “tool” to help reveal and shift these burdensome beliefs and patterns. It begins with Kinesiology, also known as muscle testing. You can try this technique alone or (as I prefer) with a friend.
To muscle test yourself, create a circle with your thumb and forefinger. Insert the thumb and forefinger of your other hand – which are in a “duck-bill” position – into the circle of your first hand. When you try to “open the duck’s mouth” (by spreading your two fingers apart), the outer circle will either be “broken” because you are “weak” or will stay closed because you are “strong.”
If you have a friend muscle test you, simply put one arm straight out in front of you. As you resist, your partner will try to push your arm down. A strong arm can resist the pressure and remain parallel with the ground, whereas a weak arm will get pushed down with noticeably less resistance.
"I have played with this tool again and again, and have always found the final muscle test to be strong, " says Hawk. He has noticed that this “healing” will last for several days or weeks and, in most cases, permanently. Now isn’t that exquisitely wicked?!
In this time of rapid expansion, we are not only shedding our stuff in record time (which may not be so comfortable), but modalities like this – infused with Love, Gratitude and offered in utter simplicity – are becoming easier to find and use with success.
We may not be able to get to the root of every belief we harbor (as some are buried really, really deep), nor will every belief respond so quickly and profoundly to receiving Infinite Love and Gratitude (think of the grumbly old neighbor who keeps refusing to smile back at you). Regardless of the immediate results, or lasting affects, this is a simple and loving gesture to offer ourselves or a friend because, if nothing else, we can all use the blessing of Infinite Love and Gratitude once in a while.
Plus, when you think back on those childhood friends who used to tease you for believing you had magic, you can arrogantly smile to yourself because you know you actually do… and that’s one belief you plan to keep nurturing!
In my practice, I find, again and again, a pattern in which “doing the right thing” and “doing what we are supposed to do” can lead to a big, hard wall.
From the time we are small children we are taught rules. They help form us, keep us safe and even “on the right track.” Rules attempt to create order out of chaos. Or, perhaps prevent perceived possible problems (say THAT five times!).
Yet, what I am noticing is how many people, especially women, have spent their entire lives following “the rules” and doing everything “right” only to come crashing into the hard, cold wall of misery. Okay, some haven’t hit misery yet; some are scraping alongside discontentment. Either way, they are discovering that although they have done everything by “the book” and have followed the “rules”, life hasn’t necessarily rewarded them with their dreams or even Joy.
Why not? They wonder, “What have I done wrong?”
Nothing. They haven’t done anything wrong, and life isn’t what they wanted or expected it to be.
I remember when I first began working as an Interior Designer at a large architectural firm in Sacramento; I was fresh out of UC Davis and my internship had turned into a real job. Before long, I was calling my mom in tears about all the “unfairness” of office politics. She shared with me information from a book she had read which noted how girls are taught that if they behave like a “good girl” and “do what they’re supposed to do” then they can expect to get “good grades” (which they then translate into rewards, promotions, etc.). Boys, on the other hand, are taught that they should do “whatever it takes to win the game” (i.e. cheat, if necessary!). Thus, the moral of the book – and my mom’s advice, it seemed – was to “toughen up” and “learn how to play the game.”
I never really liked sports, I never read the book, and I never learned how to play office politics. I believed, and wanted to believe, in “doing the right thing.”
So why is this pattern emerging? Why is it that when people do “what they are supposed to do” to create their lives they aren’t finding happiness?
To address this question, I’d like to take a giant step back – okay, some of you may need to take two or three giant steps back – in order to have a greater perspective.
As we move from duality to Oneness, we are finding blurry lines everywhere, including that line between “right” and “wrong.” In the example above, about living and creating our lives, people have spent much of their time doing what is “right” according to a belief system that may be completely “wrong” for them as individuals. They go to college, get a degree in something they enjoy and/or offers great earning potential, get married, and so on, because they believe it’s what they are supposed to do in order to be happy. Yet, even for those who wanted all these things, Life has seemingly pushed them up against this same, hard wall! Why is that?
I have said this many times: It is our BIRTHRIGHT to live in Joy!
That wall of misery and discontent only asks us to seek out our birthright; to ask ourselves, “What truly brings me Joy?” And, more specifically, “What is it that I – on a Soul level – want to bring to the world and do?”
Many of us, however, don’t give ourselves permission to ask such questions, let alone seek their answers. Instead, we follow our parents’, society’s and other’s rules which we have completely bought in to and now own – pink slip, and all!
Once, a client asked a question that had something to do with her marriage and her happiness. When I acknowledged her deep misery, her response was, “My husband is very old and he will probably die much sooner than me.” In that moment I saw how completely bound she was to the “rule” about what it meant to be a “good wife.” She had a similar question about her job, but was just as clear that she was “doing the right thing” because, as she noted, in another ten years she’d have her retirement.
Another “rule” we believe is, “If I do what is ‘right’ for me, then it may not be for the good of all.”Interesting belief! If what the Universe wants for you is to remember that you ARE Joy, and is urging you to step into that place, then why would becoming more of who you are and acting accordingly be harmful to yourself, others or the planet?
As perfectly human beings, we have done nothing wrong by following these rules we were given. We can continue to do nothing wrong – or better yet, we can stop perceiving that we ever DO anything wrong. We can stop judging ourselves and get there is no “wrong” and therefore no “right.”
Stepping away from the belief in “right” and “wrong” allows us to observe our “rules” and recognize that we always have, and thus make, choices. We can continue to stay in marriages and jobs that make us miserable, or we can decide to make other choices. It can be empowering to release our rules; it can also be frightening. Like a cage, these rules are the bars that keep us contained. They can make us feel trapped and they can make us feel safe. Acknowledging the rules we have set for ourselves is the first step toward loosening the bars on our cage. Perhaps removing, or even softening, a few of them will help us breathe a little easier.
What do the bars of your cage look like? How free do you want to be? Are you afraid that you would harm someone if you were let out of your cage?
Perhaps you are afraid of your power.
At this time of awakening we are being asked to bring forth our power; to reach deep within ourselves to discover, and hence bring forth, our magic and our gifts. When what we thought we wanted isn’t bringing us Joy, or even manifesting, we can choose to let that hard, cold wall of misery stop us. We can also choose to rest, gather our composure, and look beyond it.
Have you hit any walls lately? If so, are the walls of misery or discontent asking you to call forth your deepest dreams, desires and gifts? Do you dare reach that deep into your Soul? Do you dare not?
If you thought you were moving toward what you wanted, and it still is not working, I believe it is because the Universe wants so much more for you than you can imagine! Our little minds and egos cannot comprehend our own Grandness or the Joy that lies within us. How do we discover this Grandness and Joy?
To begin with, I invite you to move from Form to Formlessness; to allow yourself to soften your rules, structure and rigidity so you can discover the possibilities that lie within your creativity, emptiness and potential. I invite you to rest, breathe, meditate, just be, and – lo and behold – break as many of your rules as possible! And, finally, I invite you to trust. Trust that you don’t even need to “know” what your gifts are; you simply need to call upon them to emerge and create a safe space for them to materialize.
As we awaken to who we are, we are bumping up against many of our core beliefs and thoughts about our world and ourselves, including the various labels we have taken on. We believe, "I am an excellent employee (or business owner)" or "I am a dedicated and loving spouse." These labels are based on both our self-perceptions as well as our experiences.
But is it really who we are or merely an expression of our Divinity in form?
It is both. To pick "one right answer" keeps us tied to duality with an either/or view of the world and ourselves.
Our Divine Self wants us to experience more of ourselves well beyond that which can be limited by labels. Since our divinity is limitless, its grandness is bringing expanded perceptions to our human consciousness. This is part of why we are experiencing significant "challenges" in our lives that make us question and wonder, "Am I an excellent employee/business owner?” or "Am I a dedicated and loving spouse?"
It is by asking questions that answers can reveal themselves. If we find ourselves challenged with situations such as a job layoff, business closure or the end of a long marriage, we may begin to question our identity (or self-perceived labels) as well as our worthiness. The greater challenge is not whether or not we will find success once again with a new or improved job, business or spouse, but rather learning to feel good about ourselves if we don’t.
If we loose our labels – especially those positive adjectives that we attach to them – can we still feel good about ourselves? Can we find inner peace in not attaching to a specific identity that we desire to be?
Perhaps if we continue to bump up against these core beliefs about who we are we can release our more limited views and begin to see the greater picture of our magnificence. Perhaps, then, we will simply say, "I AM."