Ah... the complexity of being utterly human with enough consciousness to know just how flawed we ALL are. The "greater" the consciousness (awareness) the greater the capacity to see all the nuances that make up the human being. And, as those who are traveling a path toward understanding and loving self and others, we STUMBLE. Often. And it usually hurts.
Part of this "pain" is KNOWING that we are paradoxically PERFECT and IMPERFECT and that we - as humans - tend to screw up and then judge (whether judging another's screw up or our own). And something about this just doesn’t sit well with a conscious mind. Because what - after all - does it mean to screw up in the first place? Mistakes indicate a "right" and a "wrong." And again there lies a paradox since the "spiritual truth" is there is no duality (and likely no absolute "truth").
Most spiritual seekers understand we are one collective body and there is a longing to be in harmony with the whole. But sometimes - just like our physical bodies - the mouth wants something that ISN'T good for the digestive system. Often there are "conflicts" within the organism that should support the one. Doesn't this seem counter to a Universal wisdom?
Our bodies "fail" us with dis-ease. Our minds have conflicting thoughts... dark ones, altruistic ones. Our ego is both helpful (preserving the system as a whole) and easily crosses the line to selfishness. But WHERE is that line? Who is the judge of the line?
So we shrink back in shame and sometimes despair, not just in fear of making mistakes, but because we inherently LOVE the whole. And often the individuals that make up the whole (or at least we want to) and we simply, sincerely don't want to cause harm.
Our souls are inherently perfect and loving. And through spiritual unfoldment (a natural process) we want that harmony within and around us in this third-dimensional experience. So we strive, we test the waters, we experiment with leaning into our part in the process and we "fail" at something along the way. Oh, but then we remember that it is all an illusion and go lick our wounds, and perhaps the wounds of others. Or maybe we’ve dedicated years to healing the sick and wounded and we wonder and cry for the depths of the human wounds.
For those who are ultra-sensitive, we deeply feel all of it and this can be overwhelming. Again, the intention was never to add harm. Like a child in a play yard, we simply wanted to engage in this Earthly experience.
Intention or not, accidents and harm happen. And this is what we must face: the inevitable "ugliness" of life. Flowers die, fruits whither, branches fall and injure people, words intended to help cut like knives.
Do we retreat in mediation to "fix" ourselves? Do we take another course in x, y or z? Do we stop helping those who trust and admire our ability to meet them – human to human – because we are imperfect and have the capacity to harm?
We could. It certainly feels safer. It’s the thought that counts, right?
So the question becomes, "How perfect or spiritually aligned must I be in order to share my gifts with others?"
Unlike romantic relationships, the stakes seem to be higher in this arena. Expectations for being perfect beings go through the spiritual roof! How can we ever live up to this tall order even if we did make a soul agreement to help humanity before we incarnated?
“Great or small,” each of us is playing a role in this big cosmic game of life. We can take it "serious" and really strive to be "better" than we were yesterday… oh, but better indicates some kind of evaluation. Who is the evaluator again? God? Source? The All That I AM? So does that mean me?
And what was the point of this game? Do we take it all in casually and play merely for the sake of our own enjoyment? Do we compete? Cooperate? Create? Co-create? Win? Lose?
Is game just a metaphor? Isn’t this an illusion? A matrix? A cosmic reality show? And who is directing all this?
So, again, there emerges the mind's evaluation of each of these terms and likely a knee-jerk or emotional response to which "answer" is correct. Feeling "correct" makes us feel safer. And, as naturally cooperative beings, we certainly want to do the "right" thing for the good of the whole. Which brings us back to the terms of duality which merely adds confusion to the conscious soul’s mind.
So what is a wise, flawed spiritual-human being to do in this age of enlightenment on our evolving planet Earth?
Highly awake people tend to be ultra-conscious, which often translates into being overly critical of everything they do, and even who they are. In spite of pure intentions, good deeds and spiritual striving, the weight of self-criticism can bog the spiritual seeker down in Earthy mud and muck! No matter how hard those chakra wheels spin, there is little traction to get unstuck. A belief rises to the surface:
If I were only spiritual enough, everything in my life would fall into place.
Is this conviction keeping your contentment hostage? Are you constantly trying to “change negative thinking” or “process fears” or perfect your spiritual practices? Are you really sure you are doing everything RIGHT?
Perhaps you should learn to meditate in that Earthly mud… or better yet, just play in it!
Yes, dear seeker, this moment – as you recognize just how inadequate you are and how many more miles there are to walk on your spiritual journey – is the perfect time to take a long, deep, loving breath and exhale gratitude with a heart-felt “OM.” Put that soft Buddha smile back on your face before you read on.
Like any good, spiritual enthusiast, you likely did as instructed… and perhaps you feel better… or not. The question is, Do you believe there is an ever-evading perfect life waiting for you to ascend to it?
Rather than process your beliefs about this one, or give you some affirmations to repeat for the next 21 days, here are some essential truths for your heart to behold:
Maybe, wise one, you are already evolved and your only “lesson” is to embrace your Perfection now? Perhaps it is time to stop taking it all so seriously (as you are oh-so-beautifully conscious that you actually know you are always emanating your best anyway). It’s time to have a bit of fun for a change!
Need ideas about what to do at recess, spiritual student?
Life is an amazing unfoldment of the All That Is, ever-changing, ever-Perfect, ever-mysterious. As we awaken further to our higher spiritual consciousness, we will discover what we perceive to be obstacles along the way. Are they obstacles? Did we create them? Perhaps.
Allowing your Perfection is remembering that you are absolutely spiritual enough, your life is a Divine reflection of your expanding soul, and the present moment is where you get to embrace it… mud, muck and ascension.
Did you ever ride Disneyland's Space Mountain? This roller coaster is in full darkness - the twists and turns are only mildly perceived with the help of human senses. Eyes, somewhat adjusted to the dark, make out the structural framework of the roller coaster which seems to be much too close to the vehicle itself; only daring folks (hopefully with short arms) are crazy enough to hold their hands high above their heads! Ears can hear the train's contact with the rails and perhaps detect which direction the coaster is heading, although the screams of other riders are far more audible. Bodies feel the climbing, dipping and swerving of the ride and instantly try to anticipate its next sharp move; there's some pretty good wiggle room with only a lap belt to keep you in the car. Spiritual senses, such as intuition, are often left in the dust as the rocket launches full speed ahead!
No, we are not at Disneyland, and no, we aren't riding Space Mountain right now.
However, as the economy dips, relationships swerve and hardships are the only things that seem to be climbing, you may be wondering how to get off this unpredictable ride - or at least shed some light on it so you can see what's ahead and perhaps brace yourself.
First and foremost, getting off the ride is not an option. Your vehicle is moving much too fast, you are wearing a lap belt and there are far too many obstacles. And although it may seem like an eternity, in the greater scheme of things, this particular ride will end soon enough - every ride comes to an end. And, you have to trust that if you were really in danger, the ride would stop, the lights would turn on, and you would be escorted safely to the nearest exit.
Lights can be helpful, but in the case of Space Mountain, the point of the ride is not to see or know what's coming next. Perhaps in our human and spiritual maturity, we've ridden all the other types of roller coasters and we were bored. We wanted something new and unpredictable. We trusted that we could handle the intensity of a roller coaster in the dark.
Whether or not you can see what's ahead, your body automatically reacts to the intensity life hands you. Seeing may help, but really, how would you brace yourself?
Some folks - usually in a fearful state - hold on tightly and try to keep their bodies firmly in place on roller coasters. Yet, most of the time, too much bracing - in a desire to resist every bump and turn - can be counterproductive and whiplash may result. Perhaps lifting our arms above our head in the dark isn't the best choice for this particular ride, but flowing with the vehicle as it twists and dips is not only more gentle on our bodies, it implies we are skilled riders. After being beaten and jostled due to our own rigidity on roller coasters past, we have learned how to ride with grace and ease.
Screaming, of course, is always an option. Some laugh, some yell, and yes, there are those who were not fully prepared for such intensity who cry. All of these reactions are releases for the body and spirit during stressful - even joyfully stressful - situations.
Although our senses are here to guide us, it is a primal instinct to use them for our survival. We listen, watch, feel, smell and taste whatever necessary to ensure our safety. When times challenge us, we may even be on ultra-alert and hyper-sensitive. This doesn't always serve us, however. For example, we might receive an adrenaline overload, run into the face of danger or freeze completely. So, perhaps, it's better to have some of them disabled at times? Maybe not seeing what's coming is better for us in our current situations?
Since we cannot see what's ahead on Space Mountain, it requires a huge amount of trust; hence skilled riders know how to surrender to the ride and simply go with it. When your physical senses "fail" you, maybe it's actually for your own good.
And what about those spiritual senses? Our physical senses are strongly linked to our intuitive senses, and these, too, are set on self-protection default. It may not be able to see and predict what's going to happen, or when, but it can guide you. Learning to tune into your own intuition is simply a matter of paying attention to what you are already receiving with your other senses. Then, by careful "listening" to your inner voice and "seeing" with your inner sight, you will likely get other information to guide you. Maybe you won't know the next turn, but you sense - physically and/or spiritually - that the ride is about to turn left and drop downward. Sometimes you turn left and drop downward, and other times you are surprised to find a sharp right instead.
However, if you are fully surrendered to the roller coaster, which way it turns really won't matter too much.
All in all, however you choose to ride your current roller coaster of life, just remember that it's just one of many in the amusement park. There are lots of rides for lots of personalities. If this one isn't to your liking, trust that it will end soon enough, that you will be able to safely get off it, and know you can go find another ride. And, since you did fork our a chunk of change to get in the park, and you did get in line (even begrudgingly) for that darkened roller coaster, you might as well try to have fun!
Pressure! Are we getting tired of the pressure!?
As we awaken, or shall I say "give birth to ourselves as more awakened beings", we are experiencing the pressures of the contractions of life. Each squeeze activates energies in us to awaken; each time allowing us to release old energies that no longer serve us.
These pressures are in our best interest (believe it or not) as they help "form" that which we are becoming.
So, what do we do to relieve these pressures?
First and foremost, breathe! Take deep, slow, gentle breaths to help you remain in the present moment with as much integrity and patience as possible. However, maintaining integrity and patience can be a challenge. Thus, allow yourself to "let off steam" if you have to in as safe a way as possible. Perhaps you "scream" into the pages of your journal, vent to a close friend, or go for a long walk, run, swim or bike ride.
Another way to relieve pressure is to find something to "get your mind off" of your situation / life. This, for some, can be an escape into a dangerous or not-so-healthy addiction. If this is your concern, know that you ALWAYS have options. You can find something CREATIVE to do instead. Painting, singing, dancing, and creating other artistic expressions can be great ways to take your mind away from your "issues" and help relieve the pressures you are experiencing.
Next, allow yourself to PLAY. When we release all inhibitions of what we "should" do and simply allow ourselves to play - like a child - we open portals to graceful living. This is critical to creating pathways into the newer, higher realms of living here on earth with grace, ease and joy!
Joy is not going to come knocking at our doors as we brood in our misery in front of the television. We must learn to cultivate it - in spite of our pressures and fears - to call it into our lives.
Trust this process that is happening. Allow its gifts to come to you! In the meantime, seek out ways to reduce the pressures and begin summoning joy once again!
Is there a reason for the negative experiences I am going through?
If my life is hard, does this mean I'm not spiritual enough or on the right path?
What are the metaphysical meanings behind my physical reality?
What's the purpose to all of this?
We all want some kind of "spiritual answers" that make us at least feel okay about our uncomfortable situations. Yet, regardless of what we feel, believe, or experience, we are WHOLE, PERFECT BEINGS RIGHT NOW. This is the "lesson" so to speak.
Metaphysically speaking, we choose life simply for it's experience. We set up parameters, have "ideas" and intentions, let's say, and then we are born. As our lives unfold, we experience the fullness of being by experiencing a spectrum of thoughts, feelings, challenges, blessings, and so on. We react, act, expand, contract, sleep, eat and love.
As humans, there are certain "agreements" or "rules" we have accepted - like we really do have to eat and breathe if we want to keep our bodies. Yet, we are both human and spiritual, so we instinctively play with the idea of spirit with our human experiences, and our own "remembering" of this aspect.
To really feel human, we take on duality - in thoughts and experiences - some taking this on to a greater degree than others. Yet, the only way to experience duality is through judgment. Again, this is perfectly human. We judge ourselves, others, life, experiences, EVERYTHING. And, it's actually something that has served us all of our lives.
However, as we "shift" into a higher, more awakened consciousness, we are "collapsing" into the experience of Oneness, where the illusion of duality merges into wholeness.
So what experiences are we having that reflect this shift in the collective consciousness?
Our own judgments of life, ourselves and our beliefs are bubbling to the surface during these changing times. This can be quite challenging and even painful.
Therefore, I simply suggest to breathe. To allow yourself to have the doubts, the insecurities and feel what you are feeling. Breathe into the moment. As your fear arises, if you can be with it, you will find it will settle down and disintegrate. You'll find that you were fully present with you in that moment, and thus allowed yourself to experience life as you. My guess is that at that moment, the moment after the fear faded, you felt bliss and contentment and realized that your physical reality didn't really matter... at least not in that moment.
So, little by... oh, maybe it's brick by... or wait... perhaps it's major issue by major issue, you will begin to experience more and more of the bliss as you experience more and more of the NOW. It takes practice, patience and willingness, but it's actually all there is.
YOU ARE THE ALL THAT IS. You are simply re-membering it. You are whole, holy and worthy - ALWAYS.
Are you feeling a bit vulnerable, stressed or worried about your survival right now? Most of us acknowledge the outer influences that may be stirring up these feelings – including mass lay offs, foreclosures and our overall economy. As human beings, we are deeply affected by the everyday experiences of others and when experiences are happening at such a large scale it is easy to feel vulnerable in hard times. As spiritual beings, we can feel the effects of intense times in deeper ways. Our inner gifts of compassion and spiritual oneness connect us to others on a soul level and this can be both a curse and a blessing.
When we go through life without recognizing our spiritual connections to others, this can make us feel more unstable if the collective is experiencing instability, or more fearful if the larger masses are in fear. This is the part that is the curse. Bringing awareness to this innate spiritual gift can help transmute it into a blessing.
One simple thing you can do to soften the intensity of the feelings you experience when negativities abound is to “disconnect” from the collective (fear) consciousness on both the human and spiritual levels. I suggest you literally disconnect by turning off unpleasant news (or even your TV), or don’t answer the phone when caller ID tells you it’s that whiny neighbor calling to complain about life. Disconnecting from fear on the soul level is actually reconnecting to your heart! A simple exercise is to breathe deeply into your heart center. With each in and out breath, focus fully on your heart and allow peace encompass you. Ah!... Try that for a couple of minutes a day!
As a calmer, more heart centered human-spiritual being, it becomes easier to see that our qualities we perceived as our curses or weaknesses are actually our blessings and gifts!