Last night I decided to attend a group called "Psychics in Action." The group, facilitated by Aureya Magdalen, MFT, gathers one evening per month and usually focuses on a theme. I attend sporadically; maybe two to three times per year. Last night's theme - Trust - was the primary motivation behind my willingness to drive an hour to get there.
It was a good session and, in terms of how we approached Trust, completely different than I expected.
As usual, we were lead into an individually-focused meditation. Over the decades of practicing guided visualization I have learned, 1) to drop into the desired state extremely fast, 2) to simply observe what unfolds, rather than try to force things to happen, and 3) to refrain from over-analyzing the images or thoughts that come to me.
Well, during last night's meditation, the latter skill was a bit more challenging than usual. The images I received were so "dark" and felt so "opposite" of me that it was almost shocking. Thus, my judgments, questions and analyzing met the shock with a great desire for understanding.
Fortunately, I have been "deciphering" images and downloads for most of my life. Within a short time, the information neutralized my perception of negativity.
Soon, we were lead to the end of the meditation and I found myself so deeply embedded into the Oneness, that leaving the altered state was excruciatingly difficult. Explaining what I experienced is even more so, but I will certainly try.
One way to help integrate ("into-great") the energies we perceive as "light" and "dark" is to stop labeling them as such. Notably, our language reflects our belief systems. If we can simply perceive things and notice what is without judgment, we open our consciousness to Oneness. The All That Is includes both "light" and "dark" energies, and it is typical (reactive) for us, as humans, to assume light is "good" and dark is "bad." Yet, take a moment to think of the numerous life situations where the opposite is true. (Mushrooms, sunburns, viewing stars at night, and so on.)
Nature herself honors, utilizes and accepts both "light" and "dark - as she is both - so why don't we?
When we can allow all energies to be loved within us (both our gifts, let's say, as well as our shadows), we can learn to allow them to exist in others. In so doing, our judgments of others' lives and choices begin to dissolve and we find compassion (which is not a righteous pity). Love allows seemingly "polar opposites" to find harmony and balance within and around us, and perceptions of duality disappear.
When we send anything Love, it raises its vibration to higher frequencies. Imagine sending all aspects of ourselves Love. Imagine sending everything outside of us Love. Judgment, on the other hand, is an aspect of separation. We can choose, "Do I want to Love or do I want to judge?" Both are perfectly understandable options, so there's no "right" or "wrong" answer (unless, of course, you perceive one); simply neutral choices.
As duality shifts into neutrality, we free ourselves from worrying about the "dark" overcoming the "light" ...and vice-versa.
AND, if we choose, we can stretch our minds to perceive (actually allow our hearts to remember) that ALL IS LOVE. However, for now, most of us have a knee-jerk fearful reaction to such a bold statement... but, not to worry, it's perfectly human.
In near blackness, a spiral of evergreen winds across the floor circling inward to the center of the room. The light of a tapered beeswax candle shines alone at the heart of the spiral, offering comfort as our eyes adjust to the darkness. The aroma of freshly cut pine permeates the room as a singing harp fills our hearts with “Hallelujah!” The whispers of eager children remind us why we are here; December means Advent-time at our Waldorf school.
One child is beckoned by the teacher and silently approaches the mouth of the spiral. An unlit beeswax taper, stemming from the top of an apple, is handed to the youth. The child looks to the flickering light and begins the journey to the center of the spiral. One careful step at a time, the child is lead inward by the modest beacon. We watch in awe as our voices join the singing harp.
At last the child meets the flame and tips the taper to receive its gift; there are now two flames. The new glow illuminates the path; we can see there are stones, shells and crystals nestled in the branches of evergreen. Young hands rest the apple carefully alongside the pathway. One by one, each child takes the reverent journey to the central candle, accepts its offering and sets the lit taper amongst the evergreen, beautifully illuminating a once blackened room. Despite the abundance of radiant candles, it is hard to see through the joyful tears that are welling up in my eyes.
Every year, Winter cloaks us with darkness. She beckons us to meet her at the mouth of her evergreen spiral and travel inward to find the flame within. In spite of Holiday bustle, some accept her invitation and create a season of quietude to seek the Light of their Souls.
By surrendering to the tranquility Winter offers, we, too, can take that inner journey. Perhaps we light a candle each night, and snuggle up near the fireplace with a journal and pen. Maybe we allow Winter’s stillness in our homes, keeping the TV and radio off for an evening – or possibly the whole season. Imagine picking up that old instrument, dusting it off and learning a new song. We can listen to a clear, crisp morning call to us, then bundle up and take a private walk – around the block or in nature. Whatever we choose, we can let this season of darkness lead us to our inner Light.
Similarly, we are cycling into a darker period in our lives and are encountering the shadows of our Being. Many are experiencing old, unresolved emotions, deep feelings of unworthiness, or primal fears related to survival – literally or financially. Relationships are challenging and our feelings of being lost and powerless can overwhelm us. Our darkness is longing for illumination. Sometimes the intense blackness may be discouraging, so it is essential to remember there is always a Light at its core.
Whether we are walking an Advent spiral, experiencing the depths of Winter, or enduring the shadows of our Being, these are invitations to go into the darkness. There, we must seek the Light to receive its gift, no matter how long the journey or small the flame; it is our beacon and our Source.
To reach the Light, we simply need to walk the pathway that leads us to our hearts. It may be a solitary journey – and possibly a profoundly beautiful one – yet our Angels are always there watching us in reverence. And, if we listen carefully as we make our way through the darkness, we may even hear them singing “Hallelujah!” Then, when we emerge as enlightened Beings, we can truly help illuminate the rest of the world.