Last night I decided to attend a group called "Psychics in Action." The group, facilitated by Aureya Magdalen, MFT, gathers one evening per month and usually focuses on a theme. I attend sporadically; maybe two to three times per year. Last night's theme - Trust - was the primary motivation behind my willingness to drive an hour to get there.
It was a good session and, in terms of how we approached Trust, completely different than I expected.
As usual, we were lead into an individually-focused meditation. Over the decades of practicing guided visualization I have learned, 1) to drop into the desired state extremely fast, 2) to simply observe what unfolds, rather than try to force things to happen, and 3) to refrain from over-analyzing the images or thoughts that come to me.
Well, during last night's meditation, the latter skill was a bit more challenging than usual. The images I received were so "dark" and felt so "opposite" of me that it was almost shocking. Thus, my judgments, questions and analyzing met the shock with a great desire for understanding.
Fortunately, I have been "deciphering" images and downloads for most of my life. Within a short time, the information neutralized my perception of negativity.
Soon, we were lead to the end of the meditation and I found myself so deeply embedded into the Oneness, that leaving the altered state was excruciatingly difficult. Explaining what I experienced is even more so, but I will certainly try.
If we are moving into Oneness, and closer to our Divine selves, then why are we experiencing such loneliness?
First and foremost, it is wise to note that the Divine is found in paradox! We are all AND we are no-thing. We are expressions of the Divine in every way, including the world of paradoxes.
Interestingly, as we re-member our Wholeness, our Holiness, we re-member Oneness and separation begins to dissolve. Yet, it is in this dissolving that we can feel frightened and lonely. Our ego is what is feeling the fear, as well as the separation from everything that is familiar to it.
When we weren't so lonely, let's say, we felt part of the greater picture. We felt tied in to our families, our businesses, our churches and our communities in many satisfying ways. Yet, as we shift into higher states of consciousness, we are sensing this deep loneliness and dis-connection from these arenas.
In order to know who we are on a deeper, more spiritual level, we need to have time in solitude, so to speak. Many feel this need intuitively and seek alone time in meditation, or on other spiritually inward journeys. These people, therefore, may not necessarily feel so lonely at this time. In fact, they relish in the solace of their own sacred space whenever possible.
For most of us, however, we are bombarded with to-do lists, errands and the multitude of obligations that come with living in our society. As the financial belt tightens, so do the stresses and obligations to keep doing and going.
Our souls are longing for quietude and are taking it! The inward retreat is our soul's way of hibernating, or re-connecting with itself. This is so necessary that it is happening whether we "like it or not." And, since it is happening unconsciously, it can leave us feeling downright lonely.
And, to support our growth in these spiritual realms, our real relationships are also feeling the dis-connection. In other words, this is the time for SELF and what better opportunities do we have to be with ourselves if our relationships around us are simply not working for us?! And, if we happen to be "wounded" by our relationships, then we are more likely to nurture ourselves through the pain.
Of course, we don't need to go this route. We can, instead, choose the simpler path of wisdom, rather than the rocky one of experience. Then, the experience won't feel as much like loneliness as it does exquisite time with your own being.